Hi everyone,
Hope you are all ok. I'm ok too, but I am feeling rubbish about the way I look at the moment to be honest. I feel really fat and frumpy and like none of my clothes fit or look nice on me. I fell into comfort eating a while back, while I was still married and miserable (lol), and can't seem to break the habit. So here I am, having gone from a size 10-12 to a size 16-18 in about two years.
I just don't even feel like I look like myself in the mirror any more. I am not up myself, but I looked great a short few years ago. Now I look at photographs of myself and don't recognise the matronly looking woman in the pictures. I leave the house sometimes feeling like I look ok, but then I'll catch a reflection in a morror or shop window, and wonder if my mirror is actually working properly... Even my face looks really fat now, so my beloved makeup doesn't even help anymore... not that I'll stop using it! I just feel so frumpy as all my clothes are so unflattering, but when I try to buy some nice things I feel even worse because the things I expect to look nice look awful on...
So the time has come for me to take action. It seems like such a lot of weight to loose though, which is discouraging. I also feel depressed at the thought of having to be on a diet for the next god knows how long, as I have lost weight before through weightwatchers and got so hacked off with counting points at the end, I ended up putting the weight back on and then some!
So I guess I'm asking if any of you guys have any decent tips to motivate myself? I'm wondering whether to set up a second blog or something where I keep track of my food intake and exercise and weight, but then I don't want to set myself up for failure on the internet! I fully intend to carry on going to the gym and trying to get fit. I think its just the thought of trying to beat my cravings and eat better that worries me....
Oh well, thats enough self pity from me! I'll stop wingeing now lol. I'll be OK, think I just need to kick myself up the backside and get on with it instead of feeling so sorry for myself.
MizzWorthy xxx
Monday, 19 January 2009
Moan; Self Inflicted Issues!
Posted by mizzworthy at 16:58
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After reading your post I realized that this is exactly how I felt a couple of months ago! I managed to lose some weight by walking 3 miles a day (school track but oh well), and trying not to eat after 6pm. It really did work since if you don't eat after 6 and do that much walking, you can pretty much eat anything! I'm trying to get back on the ball with it right now, since I got a little discouraged. I think you are very pretty and you definately shouldn't feel this way :-)
hey. i think everyone feels this way sometimes. and it's up to ourselves to make it better. the most important thing is motivation though. you should try joining a group. maybe for yoga or running. also, think about what you're eating before you eat it. i hope it helps. tell us how it works out! good luck, and no matter what you think, you're still beautiful. :]
Hi Jen - I really feel for you, I had exactly the same thing over Christmas and New Year. Over the last couple of years I've put on nearly 2 stones through laziness and comfort eating.
I am being a bridesmaid in June and this has been the thing that has spurned me on to take action as I don't want to be the frumpy bridesmaid (bear in mind the other three are all size 8s!)
I'm just using my main blog as a diary of my food and exercise as I think it's as relevant to how I look and feel as makeup is.
I also find that writing stuff down makes you confront things head on - so if you eat a whole box of doughnuts and have three curries in a week you write it down and it's there for all to see.
Good luck with everything hun!
xx
I think everyone feels like this after the holidays. If you need help staying motivated enroll a friend to help wether its eating better or working out. I go to the gym with my bf and he will push me to keep at it. At times i'll want to kill him but its help me. Hope this helps x
I wish you all the best in getting healthy! I think it's important to be patient with yourself. It will take time to lose the weight. I've gained a few pounds this past year and I'm in a similar state you are...We have a health food store in the area that offers "diet" classes that are more of a lifestyle change in eating and excersise. They also suggest to take a multi-vitamin (capsule form, not tablet for better absorbtion) to keep your energy up so you don't lose motivation. Drink lots of water. This has been helping me. Above all, give yourself some time by getting rid of those bad habits and replacing these with better ones. I hope you keep us posted!
hey hun...i found your post really moving...i think most of us can relate to it!! when i feel down (mainly after looking at gossip mags, which i know are airbrushed but i cant help it) i just think yes im not happy with my body but hey look at all those people in the world without limbs, burnt in fires and i think wow im lucky and its disgusting that i should hate my body really!! i kno thats a bit deep but it really does help me to put things into perspective...so i thought im lucky to have all my bits so lets make the most of it...so a week ago i got myself a cross trainer..i joined a gym and this is all however the gym i go to is a 20min drive so i hardly go...so with the cross trainer in my room i do 10mins a night and i think its something i will realisticaly stick to!! sorry its such a long post but i could talk this subject all day..i kno how u feel!! chin up hun u look fab xx
Thanks for all you lovely kind words everyone. I really appreciate it. I'm going to have a think over the next couple of days over what changes I need to make and think about how I'm going to plan in diet and exercise around my shifts, which is probably going to be fairly challenging. I'm aiming to go to the gym at least three times a week and I'm going to concentrate on fat burning and cardio stuff. I used to be into running, and I think that maybe when I've got my fitness levels up, I'm going to look into joining a running group in the local area... That's a good starting aim I reckon. I know I should count my blessings too! I'm healthy so far and have a good job, I just want to make the most of what I have and feel more energetic etc. Thanks guys. I'm also going to think about whether to add a second blog and use that to chart my progress. I'm feeling a little bit more positive now anyway after all your lovely help and comments, so thanks so much, it meant a lot to me xxx
We all feel very tiered and sad after the holidays. Soon will be spring and we all smile again. How I understand you girl… I always have been skinny so skinny people ask all the time if I was anorectic. No I was not, but when I get pregnant all my life change especial my weight she is 4 now and I fight all the time with that issue. Every time you feel down… talk with us, together we will be strong. One thing that help me a lot was this: not as much on lose weight , but I don’t really do diets on winter. Just don’t work for me. But help me because I change what I eat and in 2 weeks I stop feel tiered and my energy was much better. I stop 1 month ago, and I feel much tiered again. So I’m going back. Is easy, take a look.
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I know exactly how you feel, its so hard!! I've put on loads of weight in the last two years and I convince myself I am going to diet everyday until I get hungry and binge again. I love food as much as make up but hate exercising. I was thinking along the same lines of a second blog so I could document my diet/weight loss honestly even the ups and downs. I was thinking this would maybe help me stick to a plan. If you started a 2nd blog I would follow for sure, maybe it would encourage me too x
Sorry to hear that you're feeling down currently. I definitely emphathise, as I'm kind of going through the same thing myself at the moment. I find that it's all about attitude, if you can make the switch from feeling down or sorry for yourself to feeling as though you deserve to treat yourself better then everything else follows. Good luck and stay positive!
hi! the same thing happened to me when i was in a rubbish relationship. I used to be a dancecr and personal trainer so i was really fit...ut that seems like another life!! I cant motivate myself to lose weight so i joined slimming world with a friend this week. For the first 4 weeks you have to keep and food diary and no way do i want to put a kng size twix on there!! lol. It will prob take me 6 months to get back to who i was at a good pace but it will so be worth it once those long summer nights roll round and i can go out feeling good about myself. Its worth a try, if i can do it, so can you! Friday night is normally my take away now...so im in a really bad mood thinking about my salad thats waiting for me, but im sure i'll get over it :)
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