Hi everyone,
Hope you are all doing well!
This is a bit of a grumbly blog really, so I'll warn you all now LOL!
I'm sure I'm not the only one, but I feel really restless and unfulfilled at the moment, especially work wise. I LOVE certain aspects of my job, but other days I feel like I'm just a tiny cog in a big machine, and there are days when things get so stressful. I also feel like I work so hard but I never have the money I want to do things I want to - any unexpected expenses end up going on the credit card. I mean I know I buy makeup, but I don't feel like I'm massively excessive in that!
Anyway, all this angst got me thinking about different paths my life could have taken... Back at school I was a bit of an all rounder really, I did equally well in academic subjects as more practical subjects - I loved art, studying literature etc as well as more traditional subjects. I took traditional subjects for my a levels (sciences, maths) because I thought I would have more prospects with those subjects. In fairness, I probably did, but I keep wondering what would have happened if I'd gone down a more artistic path... would I be feeling happier and more fulfilled with my career? I used to dream about working in fashion or publishing... even being an artist LOl!
Anyway, this path of thought got me wondering about whether I could do some kind of night course in doing makeup and use my hobby as a way to bring in extra cash... I don't know if it's a pipe dream or not, but I'm really starting to think about it seriously. I'm sick to death of doing shift work, never eating properly and constantly stressing in case one of my patients actually does act on their thoughts of self harm/suicide... Even doing wedding makeup or working for free on am dram productions would be a welcome escape!
Does anyone else everhave these thoughts? I feel like a lot of bloggers have really fulfilling jobs on here...
Oh well, ramble/moan over!
Love
MizzWorthy xxx
Saturday, 21 March 2009
Silly dreams....
Posted by mizzworthy at 23:57
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Funny. I study art. Something that I really like… but life takes so many different ways!!! I think we all feel the need of new things. Especially when we enter 30’s… I believe we are more then one thing, so if you would love to try a new one, why not? Go for it, what you lose? Nothing you will always win new experiences :)
I know exactly how you feel, I studied makeup and adored it but stopped to follow my degree studies. I work in Human Resources and have had the worst experience in my current job (which I have now resigned from - yay!)but I always wonder what might have happened if I pursued the makeup more.
Give it a go, what have you got to lose :)
Absolutely. I was speaking to my friend about this last weekend and she had been on a course at work (she's a social worker). The course tutor was a relationship expert. He told the group that, unless a person has a creative outlet in their life, they are virtually guaranteed to feel unfulfilled at some point. I wholly believe this and this belief is supported by the fact that drama/art/music therapy is often employed in clinical settings. To echo Gabriela, I would say go for it. You're still young and, from what I've seen, are a talented, intelligent woman xxx
I really think if you have the talent and the desire, you should pursue it. I've been toying with the idea too, I got my degree but haven't really done anything with it, and I certainly don't want to work as a PA for the rest of my life. I was trying to use my redundancy as an opportunity to get into editing, or working for a magazine or something, but it's proving to be a lot harder, so I was thinking of doing an evening course in journalism, or media studies, or editing...something along those lines...am saving some money so I could put it toward that! Like Gabriela said, what have we got to lose?! It will help you feel more fulfilled, and probably in turn better in yourself. Let's both do it :) x x x
You should go for it - we only live once.
I've looked into it myself but there aren't really any courses in Bristol except for beauty therapy nd i'm not keen on spending hundreds of pounds to learn how to wax legs and pluck eyebrows!
I looked into doing a fortnight intensive course at the jemma kidd makeup school in London. It's feasible but expensive and other things seem to come by and stand in line for the money so it will be a long time before I can do it.
Still - I have some other projects I'm exploring because I don't want to be working for a bank forever and I want to use the skills I've learnt at work to do something with makeup that pays a bit better than being a MUA. My good friend Yvette is really at the top of the tree when it comes to being a makeup artist (she's bessie mates with Gok Wan) and she still struggles for money despite flying all over the world working on top fashion shoots.
Live for the day!
xxx
Completely agree. Life gets in the way sometimes. I studied music because it is my life at university along with IT because i thought I could get a job out of it. i stumbled into PA work and just got stuck in a rut. I do enjoy my job as it is different every day I don't get stressed with it which is a relief as I have other stresses in my life which can be overwhelming but everyday i can't help but think I am wasting my life! I love Photography and music and would love to pursue that somehow. I guess it all boils down to one thing. Getting over the fear. I defo think you should go for it!! If not you will never know....
Hi, I'm not happy in my job, I'm trying to get another one. I am trying to enrol on an evening beauty therapy course as well (I have to go on a recruitment session first) that concentrates on cosmetic make up at my local college. I'm hoping it could lead me into doing wedding make up to start with.
Thanks for all the comments girls! I know it probably won't make me big bucks and stuff, but I think I'm definately going to look into it more and see what more I can find out. I do really feel like I need some creativity and lightness back in my life... I doubt I'd ever be able to give up nursing just on a financial level, but I just feel like there has to be more to life... Thanks girls!!!
I don't think I have anything else to add other than to tell you my experience, being older and probably not wiser but further along in terms of where you are right now. I left my very well paid job in 2006 to find out what it was that I wanted to do with the rest of my life as it was clear to me that another 30 years of the same thing was going to drive me to an early grave! It was scary and I knew my savings weren't going to last that long with a mortgage to pay so I did some temping to cover the bills. But I had the freedom and flexibility to say when I wanted to work. Just over two years later and I have to say that it was the best thing I ever did. We'll have to chat over that coffee next week and I'll tell you what I do now! It isn't always possible to know what you want until you are free of the stresses of your current situation with work. A break if you can afford a small one, is very worthwhile.
Thanks for all your comments guys - Its good to know I'm not the only one who feels like this. I guess ven if I only ended up doing it part time or at weekends, it would be better that the position I'm in now - the good thing about nursing too is that there is always agency work available!
I thought I followed your blog hun but I'm a divvy! Anyway I do now :)
I can only echo what the girls are saying, if you feel that is something you are impassioned to follow then definitely go for it.
On the flip side though also be aware of the time and dedication it requires, and I only say this as I know you have a very demending job already which you are I presume going to be continuing?
I do my make-up qualification at night, 3.5 hours on a Thursday. In conjunction with that I do my Diploma in Health Safety Security & Employment Standards on a Tuesday night, without which I wouldn't be awarded my make-up qualification.
Although it is very fun, there is also a lot of research/ coursework, I have 8 exam papers for H&S and a final in May. In the make-up side I have project to hand in on make-up through the ages. It needs to be original and detailed.
Some weeks the course is hard to fit in and thats coming from someone who doesn't work full time during the week, but real life takes precedence.
I'm not saying all this to put you off but I would hate to see you add extra pressure to your workload, its not just all make-up and brushes :) xxxxx
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